people dream dreams of oceans and sand...

illusions caused by tryptophan...

t.s. elliot eat you heart out...

i love that poem. anyone know which one i'm refering to? i gave a big clue with the authors' name. if i were a poet, i'd like to think that i'd be like t.s. elliot. he makes fun of himself and at his insecurities. it all seems very now.

anyways. friday was a bust. i did nothing...well, i cleaned. i must admit there is some satisfaction in having a really white and clean toilet bowl. and having my room all organized makes it easier to think. but, i didn't even leave the house yesterday, that's pretty sad. i don't know why, i just didn't have anything planned that would take me out of the house. i usually have a million things that take me around and about the south sound, but yesterday was just for sitting and being.

today, however, i'm off to football practice. i'm still the shortest one there, but i don't get any "rudy" jokes (from the people there at least) and i have a good time. so, yeah...there you go.

right, i wish that i had more to say. i kind of want to keep writing, to pour out all these amazing thoughts, but i just don't have anything there to let out. the rut continues, i'm still alive, all your base are belong to us, don't stop believin’, there's always tomorrow for dreams to come true, i just want to be me...when i can...i will...

place those song exerpts!

and so i leave you,

as scattered as always,

-weatherboy

grateful for...all the usual stuff...

...family, friends, people who i love and care for.

yeah. i'm grateful for you all. i'm grateful that i've made it this far, and that i might still have a ways to go. i'm grateful for the place i live, the people i associate with (no matter any of their faults! cause i've got more than my fair share). i'm grateful that i'm here, now, living the life that i am, going to school when not many people can. i'm grateful that the people that i love are all safe and doing alright (as far as i know). i'm grateful that somebody cares. i'm grateful that i have love to give, and i do give it...to all of my friends and loved ones, even if it's hard to tell, it's there...i promise. i'm grateful that the nascar track that was coming to washington has been rejected. i'm grateful for so many things that this list can go on and on...i'm grateful for you all and i hope that you all had a truly happy thanksgiving, i hope you were with people who matter to you. i was missing someone during my thanksgiving...i'm still missing her... i'm grateful for her...

anyways, i don't know how to really end this...i've made a list similar to this before and it was probably better as it was not sparked by anything more than emotion, but emotion had a large part of this too.

I'm kind of sleeping my days away, i don't know why but i've been sleeping more than ever. it's weird. i spent thanksgiving with my family at my grandparents house. it was good, i saw a bunch of my extended family. but, i came home and pretty much slept until this morning. crazy. where is my mind...i just don't know anymore...

well, there you go. there's my thanksgiving post. it's kinda mellow i guess. then again, that's kind of the feeling right now...

who sucked out the feelin'?

damn you seasonal affective disorder...

always yours,

-weatherboy

everyone's home and safe...

goodtimes this weekend it seems...

unfortunately i had WAYYY too much to drink last night. it was my sisters' birthday party, my parents had a bunch of her friends come over and stuff. there was a lot of good food (some that i even made myself!) and a lot of good beer. (pyramid Snowcap) I drank way too much that's all there is to it. i past out some time around like 8 or something. bad times. i seem to fall asleep at the worst times...

anyways, i hope that you have a good week schwee! kick those tests in the balls! i know you can do it! you'll get out of that school! and jen will get you out if needs be, i'll help. hell, i mapped out HEW's course to get out of WWU. you have a strong support unit!

well, there you go. i have nothing else to really report. i'm not sick, i'm still in a rut of sorts, i'm down, but not out, and it's almost christmas... maybe the holidays will bring more good times...

till next time kids...

keep it real...

-WEATHERBOY

cosi, cosi...

a night of mediocre wine and good people...

so, my week of stress is over. and, as i said i needed to, i went north to meet up with friends. i was invited to a wine and cheese party. so, with that as the plan for the first part of the night, i went up and called the usual kids... HOWEVER, they (save bobanna) were all on their way to the apple cup (WSU 28- UW 25). and bobanna was tuckered out from a week of tomato's and internet quizes, so she hit it early and couldn't meet up with us later. SO, it was just HEW and i heading on over to K.T.'s place in seattle right underneath I-5 in eastlake. it's a great place, and K.T. and her roommate Alli have made quite the little home for themselves there. HEW and i got to meet K.T.'s man, who is a very cool guy. We also got to meet a bunch of new people and even some people that we met last new years, like K.T.'s brother (who's a really good drum and bass dj) and his woman Carla. and a group of people (husband and wife pair and one of their friends) who were really cool, down to earth, and loved alaska. so, we all traded stories for a while. it was just a really good chilled out, relaxed time. untill some jackasses appeared with their girlfriends. NOW, i know that i get really annoyed sometimes with guys for acting stupid, and i might just be a snob or something. BUT, these idiots were ALREADY drunk on wine and THEN they busted out the 24oz cans of BUDLITE (pussies) and THEN started taking shots of Jack and Crown Royal...OH, and i might add that it was like 2:30 in the morning when they started doing this. they were putting their hands all over the women at the party cause they were drunk and they knew they were the shit. too bad their girl friends were there to witness the events. but, the girl friends were probably too drunk to care anyways. so, other than the morons, it was a really great night with some really great people! i've finally met K.T.'s roommate, Alli, and her bf, and alli was really cool. so, i guess i had a good friday night.

Oh, HEW and i made a return trip to Beth's Cafe later on, and the service was MUCH BETTER this time. they were really fast and there was even a guy there who played some classical violin for us (the whole Cafe, not just HEW and i). we got home sometime around 5 or so and just went right to our rooms to sleep. a night well spent.

(EDIT)-by the man himself...i ranted, and i retracted...done.

ANYWAYS,

this weekend would have been a lot better if i had jen here. the wine and cheese party i went to would have been so much cooler if i had my hot baby with me to show off. and for those of you who know jen, you know she really shines in situations like that. i miss you baby...

well, i've been all over the place on this post...

so, i'm done...

till next time...

"the sun still shines in the summertime, i'll be yours if you'll be mine, i've tried to change...but, i've changed my mind...

think i'll have another glass of mexican wine..."

-OUT

the origin/explanation of our names...

i got my screen name from a little journal that i was given. the journal was small yellow with a really retro-cool drawing of a little boy with an umbrella on it. on the top of the journal was simply the word Weatherboy. so, as many of you know i like beer, and cider. i always said that if i ever opened up my own brewery, that i would call it Weatherboy Ales (and ciders-if i went down that road). from that idea came using Weatherboy as my offical title for many different things. that and it has something to do with my last name...

so, there you go. the origin/explanation of my name, i was wondering if we all could do this so we all have a new little insight on the people who read our journals. that and i'm just curious as to where some of you got your name (i forgot how schwee came about, and artsypants...?) anyways, just a thought...

it's the day before my judgement day. i have so much to get done. today shall be a sprint, but i think that i can do it. send me good thoughts today and tomorrow everyone, i'll need them...

anyways till next time i'll leave you all with my mantra for the next couple of days...

"come on schwartz, come on schwartz!"

-OUT

therapy...

did you ever just have one of those weeks...?

well, here i am. procrastinating. i could be working on all of the shit that i need to get done. but, no. i want to take a moment and just talk to the screen. it relaxes me. i love posting on this site, it's good. i've been told that certain persons never know what's really going on in my life, they have to find out by looking at my web journal (that's right, web journal. i CAN'T STAND "BLOG", it's a lame buzzword that will only get over-used and soon be on one of those lists of words that fashion people never want to hear again...like "CYBER" ,or "EXTREME", or "E-[place word here]") i don't quite know the reason that i put a lot of my life out there for everyone to read. even more, i don't quite know why i have a hard time conveying my life orally. i think it's because more and more i tend to live inside my head. i seem to talk less and less. the only times that i want to really do a lot of talking are when i'm with good people in a fun environment. give me a little beer, and i'll talk your ear off. i think i'm letting my emotions do a lot of the talking for me anymore and i think that i realize that and that i tend to be quiet when my mood isn't all that great. rather than talk it out, i just think long and hard about it and eventually let it go. ok. i'm done, no more "what's going on in weatherboys' head". sorry about that.

so, i'm going nuts down here in oly. i need to get away. i'm due for a trip north. i know i said that i might be down here for the entire month, but i think i'd lose my mind if that was what ended up happening. so, i think that i'll be in the area sometime friday after my class is out.

sorry about the last few posts being so dreary. i know that i attempt to be happy in most of my posts, but it takes a lot of energy anymore. i'm in a fog at the moment, but with the weekend's approach comes the eventual lifting of some of the fog and eventually i'll be in higher spirits. needless to say, i miss all of you and i hope that we can all get together soon. baby, i miss you.

till next time everyone...

write happy posts in my stead...

-WEATHERBOY

no dancing and no beer make weatherboy, something, something...

go crazy...?

at least there's pleanty of wine around the house. alas, i have imbibed none within the last 6 hours or so...just a glass of chianti (stracalli) with lunch.

ok, good news on the horizon. the nirvana box set comes out on november 23rd, i believe. 80-some tracks, (including a dvd) and of those 80-some songs, 63 are previously unrealeased!!!!! i know, i'm kind of a nerd about this, but i can't wait!

NOW, i can't understand waiting in line overnight for a damn video game! What the hell was that about? i like collecting things and all, but people who wait all day and night in line for HALO II? i just don't get it. it's just a fucking game! but, people were talking about it like it's this monumental moment in their lives...wow. i'd hate to have their life. if a game brings them that much joy...damn. i don't lose my mind over things of this nature, i guess that's what i'm trying to put out there. i'm just trying to convince myself that i'm not THAT much of a nerd! (trying...)

needless to say...i won't wait in line for the nirvana box set.

it's been a pretty dull weekend. i think that makes two in a row for me. no reason to complain though. i'm getting into a schedule that seems to be working. i'm going to class (to teach), then going to school (to learn), then going to work out (at evergreen), and then coming home and doing my school work and stuff (stuff meaning sleeping). so, yeah. that's me at the moment. i've even starting going to football practice, i'm way out of shape, but if anything will kick my ass back into shape, i'd put my money on this. november is turning out to be quite the endurance test of a month, in more than one way. it's good for me though, it'll make me better...in general.

ok, so i've decided that the show "drawn together" is pure genius. it's a cartoon on comedy central and you all should check it out. i'm going to start recording every episode. it's that good. family guy is excellent, and i can't wait for it to come back, but, holy shit. this show is awesome. it's even sparked me to want to design my own tee-shirt. you all must see it at least once, it's horrible...but great.

alright, i'm done. i should get back to work on my project that's due thursday. i'm trying to lessen the stress of this week. i've got a lot of shit to do. and two presentations on thursday, shitty...badtimes...

well, you all take care of yourselves and keep me posted...

till next time...

"i love Ling-Ling!"

-ROCK STEADY

i'm getting old and i need something to rely on...

Keane is a great band...

so yeah. it's friday, and what am i doing? NOTHING. i'm sitting here listening to keane and updating this post. this week has sucked, pretty much. well, nothing bad has really happened, so i guess i'm just complaining for the sake of complaining. i would go out, but i have no desire to spend a ton of money (that i don't really have) buying beer (that costs too much for a pint-at least $3 a pint NO MATTER WHERE YOU GO ANYWHERE IN THE P. SOUND AREA!! that's like robbing someone! MOST microbrews only average about $1 a bottle! fucking savages...) and then again i'm still here in oly, which isn't that bad. it's just that nobody else is down here. oh well, i'll get some good work done this weekend. next week has a lot of stuff due, so i need this weekend to get my shit together...or, at least have good intentions too...

k, well, schwee and bug are off in I-town in central NY. hope they have a good time, jen if you read this get schwee a bottle of tug boat red! it's soo good!

this post sucks. i'm just not up to it tonight...i thought it would be a good thing to update my shit though, i get so bad about not updating...

so, this has more than run it's course. i'll post again when i'm in a better mood and something cool has happened that i need to post about...

-OUT

i have a very good fwiend in woam named biggus dickus...

Monty Python's: Life of Brian (if you liked quest for the holy grail, you really should see this movie...

well shit. not much to report. my weekend was quiet and lame. i did however manage to make it to my first football practice in 6 years. i died at the end, but it was really good to be out there doing the drills again.

umm...yeah. not a whole lot else that needs to be said. i'm kinda in a rut at the moment.

i'm really glad that my "much love" post actually meant something to some of you, it meant a lot to me to put it out there. i really value my friends so much, and it makes me happy that i made some of you feel all warm and fuzzy cause i meant it. i really don't know what i'd do without you guys. i wish we could all hang out more, alas, i'm stuck down here for a while...however...

has anyone seen the line-up for the end's Deck the Hall Ball? HOLY SHIT, it's probably the best fucking line-up of bands that i've ever seen!!! The End has totally outdone themselves! This line-up puts all the other deck the hall ball's to shame, and most of the endfest's... The show is Dec. 9th (thursday, not a great day for a concert, i know) but this would be probably one of the best shows to catch for quite a long time! making plans for a group outing sounds like a good plan to me...

so, it'd be nice to hear from you guys. i could use hearing a friendly voice. things havn't been all peaches and cream for yours truly as of late, so give me a call sometime...

i remain as always,

short and blond,

-OUT

i believe in a thing called love...

ok, so tonight didn't go how i planned...

i was supposed to meet a guy in my cohort named Jeremy at a tavern called "the eastside". it was $2.00 micro's tonight and it was a great time to go out and have a few beers with good people. unfortunatly, no one else showed up...it was just me. SO, i read my current Nirvana book and tried some new beers. jubellale(i'm not sure on the spelling)...is really good by the way... I had a few and then decided to head on out to get some mexican food at EL Serape'. i noticed that, when i got there, they were doing karaoke...well i couldn't help it...i went in and had a look at their selection while i had yet another beer and waited for my food. I did "i beleive in a thing called love" and "you know you're right". I believe in a thing called love ROCKED THE FUCKING HOUSE! It was so awesome! I had such a great time. after i did the much less popular "you know you're right" i got my food and headed back home...

SO, that was my night.

my DAY was not too much different. class in 8th grade was fine and then i took off to do a field trip with my cohort. we went to the museum in tacoma and a few of us got bored really fast...so we took off to a local brewery to have a couple beers really fast before the field trip was over...i had a lot of people with me and we had a great time, it was a lot like undergrad (god i'm lame!). ANYWAYS, the people in my cohort and i now have yet ANOTHER story to tell when we are older. today was a great day. it was nice to be able to go out, with like twenty bucks for the whole day, and have a couple of beers with some nice people. I hope that everyone had a good day. needless to say i miss everyone. you all would have had a great time today too...i wish you all could have been there.

i'm tired now...and i have to teach in the morning...

je vous aime...

-OUT

there was a lit-tle spanish flea...

a movie star he thought he'd be...

well, hey! woo! how's it going everyone!?

you know what i love? i love my family, friends, basic cable, and free trips to the salad bar...everything that makes this country great!, a hot itailian-lookin' girl in NY, the state that i live in, the life that i live, the people i've met, the times that i've had, the music that i listen to, the freedom that we all take for granted, dancing, singing, laughing, drinking, having a choice, making use of my ability to choose, dogs, the past, the present, the future, the thrill of it all, karaoke, long walks at night, football, thai food, learning...always learning, technology (always and forever), time (even though sometimes it goes by so fast that i lose track of it, or so slowly that i feel like the clock is going backwards), high school, college, grad school, kids, reading old notes, everything...i love the life that i have lived thus far, and the life that is still spread out in front of me. i have hope, it'll take a lot to take the hope from me. i'm optimistic for the future because of the people that i know. i love this country, and i love being swiss...

take care all, and sleep well. things are gonna be fine, the sun will rise tomorrow and things could always be worse...

much love,

-Weatherboy

what the hell is this monkey shit!!??

so much for keeping our names out of the picture...

okay, okay...fine.
the name's joshua

was i named after someone? yes, the biblical figure. and my middle name donald is after my fathers best friend who died of cancer. (it's also kurt cobain's middle name)

now i'm not the odd one who needs to be all secretive.

i had a good weekend. i reffed football on saturday afternoon in the cold and rain and was greeted by messages on my phone when i got back into my car to head back home. it was bobanna (i'm still refering to everyone by their nicknames, we've earned them) and she had plan and it sounded good. i got home, showered and headed on north and called HEW to see if he was down. since another party was being flaky in the form of not giving directions, we took the other offer and headed on down to mr. lucky's, where RD and Hill were throwing a fantastic party! EVERYONE seemed to be drunk by the time that HEW and i got there, but i just wasn't feeling the hard-a at the moment and when i finally got a beer, i spent too much and was very displeased with the selection. but oh well, the music was good and the company was better. i hadn't seen hill in a very long time, RD either. so i was pleased.

turns out that KP, Bobanna and the BF had to head out kinda early, it seems that KP actually had work in the morning! holy shit, i can't believe that she even came out! not long after, HEW and i took off and went back to the homestead to bake some pizza and watch some family guy. KT gave us a call once we got there and she decided to come on over and watch family guy with us and eat and have a sleep over. she arrived we talked and ate a little while watching and eventually we all got heavy eyes and we departed to our rooms.

that's about it.

i was the first to get up on sunday. i had to head on back to oly to do the hang with the fam thing. brother and sister-in-law had just come home from Paris and we watched a slide show from their computer of their trip. it was cool, i guess. i'm not the biggest fan of slide shows, especially after a few LARGE glasses of wine. they did bring me back some french brandy though, that's cool. anyways the fam eventually left and i took a nap and did some homework. after that i went to my room and turned on Bram Stoker's DRACULA, great movie. that's how i spent my halloween. kind of a let down, but i didn't expect much more since i had gone north for saturday night.

so here i am, in front of the computer again on a monday night, reflecting on the weekend. goodtimes. too bad i'm stuck down here for a while. i need to focus on school for now. at least for the next month. this month is SO going to suck. work, work, work.

so, as i sit here sipping my cab/sav, i'd have to say that this year of school has been made so much better thanks to all the people who read this post. i know that i get sentimental sometimes, but i mean it. you guys are all great, you make me laugh and forget about my problems and all the shit that is looming on the horizon. i'd like to say thanks. the dancing, the drinking, the drag-shows, the eating, the fireworks, the singing, the time spent on the phone, everything...thanks. i am truly a lucky bitch to have friends like you.

with that, i'll be off...

a warm and fuzzy,

-Weatherboy